A day in the life…

Darkness closes
Like a cocoon.
Second skin,
This flesh imposes
Trapping me within,
And

Suffocating.
Suffocating.
Suffocating.

A strangle grip around my throat.
My voice silenced.
Confidence stripped.
Expression stifled.

Isolating.
Isolating.
Isolating.

The mind turned upon itself.
Plans disrupted.
Dreams burned.
Thoughts corrupted.

Segregating.
Segregating.
Segregating.

Loneliness pervades.
Drives me to despair.
Plaster on a smile.
Live the charade.
And all the while

Suffocating.
Isolating.
Segregating.
Me.

Lost for Words

Words escape me,
I am mute, struck dumb
by the darkness in my mind.

Overcome
by the hatred I reserve
purely for myself.

Incapacitated
by the loathing
pressing on my last nerve.

Freedom
is the light in a tunnel.
I see only black; an empty oeuvre.

Nothing
is good enough,
no words to share my pain.

Words escape me.
Alone, again.